“ You know nothing, Jon Snow.” is an often quoted line from the smash-hit HBO show, Game of Thrones, and I don’t feel like it’s a fair assessment. Sure, Jon doesn’t know who his parents are, doesn’t know which members of his family are alive or dead, and several other things, but he obviously doesn’t know nothing. Sometimes I feel a little like Jon Snow.
Obviously, I don’t have to fight off ice zombies in a world modelled after medieval Europe, but sometimes I feel like everyone is telling me that I know nothing.
My main problem with this is that I feel like after 26 years on this planet, I should at least know something. I should have the answers.
I should have my life and my path figured out.
I should have at least some sort of plan to my life beyond the next few months.
I should know where I want to go and take steps to get there.
I should have some sort of answer to give my extended family when they ask me what my plans for the future are.
When you are in school, it’s easy to see the progression of where you need to go. You take certain courses to advance to the next level, and then when you’re done you can take higher levels of schooling, or branch out into different fields. I can see the attraction for people who spend a good portion of their lives in school.
A friend of mine is in medical school in the Caribbean and he could tell me the exact number of days that his program was going to take, and then the number of days his clinical training would take, and then the amount of years of residency he’d have to do. It seems pretty daunting when you think of it all stacked up in days and years, but kind of comforting in a way. He knows what he needs to do for the next 6 or 7 years.
On the other hand, I don’t know what I need to do. I don’t even know really what I want to do. I know what I like doing, which is writing, doing research, and talking to people about things I care about but I don’t know what my endgame is. I’m not 100% sure what my goals are, other than I want to do well in whatever I’m working on. I just don’t know.
One good thing about not knowing is that the possibilities are endless. I could pick almost anything as a goal, or anything to do at the moment. Just because I don’t have the answers to what I want to do right now, doesn’t mean that I will never know what I want to do. I just have to go out and find that thing that I want to do, and get to work on getting it done.
So my message to anyone who is at a similar kind of crossroads in their lives is to try something new. Get out of your house. Go new places. Read new books. Listen to a TedTalk. Write a journal. Take up a new hobby. Trust me- the answers are out there, even if you don’t know what they are yet. You just have to get out there and find them, and so do I.
– Laura Koops
Public Relations, 2017
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